Ending another year....

"So many things done and so many to look forward too"

This year from the start has been very different than any of the other ones. So many things have been learned about myself and others.

I have broaden my view of the world and society this year. Put my wall down and let others in. Some people I let in I regret it, and some I don't.

I love that I lost weight this year, and got a great job as a sales associate and some nifty purchases I have done as well.

My most favorite event of the year was the friendships I made.

Life is a circle never finished.

Life right now is so busy for me. I have so much going on from beta club to trying to get a couple of zzzzss. Sometimes I feel like life is just trying to make that circle, but yet it can never get complete. Its as if I have to much to do and I cant make time and do all the stuff I have to do. I always want to get my work done, but I can never make the time to do those tings.

Anyways Im so excited for next year to start applying for college. If i was in a traditional high school I would be doing it now, but since I am at early college I have to wait..

I plan on applying Early Decision- George Washington Univ, regular/early action American Univ, regular New York Univ, UNC Charlotte, Wilimington, and maybe University of Toronto at St. George.

Hopefully I get in the first one. :)

no title

So far my life has been great I love my job and my grades have improved :). I can't believe it is almost really fall???, but of course here it can not get but so cold before january. The only bad things going on is that i feel as if I am in this cycle of boredom and completeness as if there is nothing to live for but work and school. I hate feeling like this because it makes me sad and stuff , but maybe when i graduate from highschool it will go away.

Also for the first time I heard Edward Maya on American radio that was my highlight yesterday :)

Kaskade - Angel On My Shoulder

This is an awesome video from American DJ Kaskade its my favortie song at the moment :)

Fall is on the way :)

FALL IS HERE :)

Im so glad its fall. The weather is so beautiful and cool and crisp :). The only thing I don't like is how I'm so busy this fall. I have a new job at a clothing store and im sga rep, beta club secretary, and key club editor. I have so much to do :)

This fall I have so many things planned to do. This sunday im going to charlotte and also i start my new job.

The songs Im listening to are : Move for me by Kaskade and Sun is Up by INNA :)

Stress in my life :(

Lately there has been so much going on in my life i don't know what to do :(. Plus I'm trying to all I can to get in George Washington University :) If i don't get in I don't know how my life will go :(. Then with work and stupid ppl there not believing what I say and soooo much school work then I'm doing bad in Precal too :(

FML!

This is the best video of the summer :)

Edward Maya - This is my life video

• He is a new artist from the country Romania. This is his second single and my favorites song.

Great fall jackets :)

This a great jacket for fall
(http://www.abercrombie.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/product_10051_10901_666255_-1_12223_12202)

This is also available from abercrombie for women

School has begun :)

School started friday the 6th of Aug :) Great new year i presume many people have changed and all kinds of things have and are going to happen this year. The only thing I dont like is how the school wants to make our college classes count on our highschool transcript :(

Other than that there is so many new styles and music going on in the world! next post is about music :)

Amazing Looks from Lookbook.nu

"These are my favorite looks of the day just click the link for a bigger picture and more looks from each person."

LOOKBOOK.nu: "WITHOUT A SHRED OF EVIDENCE" by Kayla Hadlington: "Dolce and Gabbanna, Charity Shop Dolce and Gabbana Perfume Top, DIY Acid Wash Shorts"

LOOKBOOK.nu: "" I Died So I Could Haunt You "" by Denny Wenny

Summer 2010

Hello, Sorry I haven't been updating but im back :) My summer is going ok just working all the time and summer college classes and troubling ex lol so in other words my summer is boring haha :)

Summer 2010 Music :)

• David Guetta ft. Fergie and LMFAO- Gettinn over you 
• Taio Cruz ft. Kesha- Dirty Picture
• Usher ft. Nicki Minaj- Lil freak
• Beyonce - Diva
• Miley Cyrus- Cant Be tamed
• Usher- OMG
• Edward Maya- This is my life

Summer 2010 TV

• Pretty Little Liars
• Degrassi
• Real World New Orleans
• Locked Up Abroad

Summer Style 

• Women/Men- Spring Scarves
• Men- Jeans w/ Holes
• Women/Men- Ray-ban Wayfarers
• Men- Cargo Shorts
• Women- Maritime/Navy Dresses
• Men- Maritime/Navy Shirts
• Women- Ray-ban Club masters

Those are some of the amazing things i noticed and heard and watched this summer what are you seeing, hearings, and wearing this summer ? email me @ nsteen05@gmail.com

I really dont know.

Friends is something we all have and we all want. Friends can be the most important people in your life and also the most aggrivating. They can start the most drama and cause you the most pain. However they can also be the people in your life that are there to help you when you are suffering the most.

Something I dont understand is how you are suppose to decide when you should drop or give up on a friend. If all your other friends have already gave up on them ?

What do you think? Are freinds really worth the drama??

Hmm.

Song : Havent met you yet by Michael Buble


well hmm. lately i have been in the same mood, lonely and dissatisfied. I really hate where I live :(. I dont get to go to my favorite cafe or stores :(, and I'm lonely because the people i like are not interested in me i guess. Women these days  are only interested in guys that are jerks or dummies that are "bad".


Anyways today i got to go to fayettville :) i went to the dentist saw the beautifulest girl at starbucks today :) she seemed so nice but i had to leave after i got my coffee. School was kinda lame today didnt do anything fun :/

Open Relationships?

Dating someone in an open relationship can be so fun, but hurtful at the same time. An open relationship means your gf/bf can basically cheat on you and you can cheat on them.

I know sounds hurtful right? Well it is, but sometimes to be with the one you love you must agree to their terms.
Is love worth sharing your gf bf wife or husband with someone else?

Those are questions I wonder the answer to. Recently a lot of people and celebrities are trying open relationships. To me it seems more like a game  than love :(.

What do you think would you agree to an open relationship to be with someone you love ?

Honesty?

What is honesty? according to the dictionary honesty is when someone is truthful or sincere.

Honesty is something that is really important to me. I try to stay honest, and I appreciate when people are honest to me.

Sometimes I wonder why our society is not honest? Why do they tell us what they want us to know and not the full story? Why do they tell us it is ok to lie about certain things, but not everything??
Those questions are questions I ask myself, and Im quite sure you ask yourself everyday. The answer I found was that society wants us to just know the good not the bad. They want us to think that partying and drinking is ok, and that there is no consequences. They also want us to think that random one night stands, sex with random partners, and drug use don't have consequences no stds or infections.

This is what honest is in my eyes.

Friendship

Friends last forever?

What is friendship?

according to the definition friendship is the state of being a friend.

Well lately it seems that friends or friendship is not that definition. A real friend is someone you can depend on someone who has the same trust for you as you have for them.

Well sometimes it seems its hard for me to tell when someone is a friend and when they are an acquaintance? It is really hard to tell don't you agree? A friend would share their thoughts with you , just as you do with them?

Maybe friendship isn't worth all it says it is?

If you like my blog please check out this blog posts sponsor here is some details

Multi Profit Websites

*******Introducing The World's Quickest & Simplest Point & Click Website Builder, Designed For People Who Want To Make Fast Cash With Their Own Websites. Build A Website In 3 Simple Steps!****** click the link that says *click here*

Click Here!

Personality

Personality is something we all have and we all try to improve and change at times. In our life. I myself dont like my personality, because its like society itself has caussed me to change it to fix there sterotypes, cliques, and even groups. Maybe a question we should ask ourselves is why we are all trying so hard to be something were not. Trying to impress those that dont matter. Trying to get that one glance or stare from that special person you always think about. All of this is why I ask myself "Why do I change my personality" Why do I? Is fitting in or getting that special glance all that matters to me?

Im sorry that all of this is about personality. When the true point of all this is how I change my personality to fit with the time and place, and even the people around me.

Lastly, I will like to end with this is personality something you should change for others or something others should change for you? I know it sounds contradicting but think about it

Love?

Love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment. That is the definition of love. Is love only sex? or is it emotion. To me love is emotion. How can you love someone if its just sex? Why is society so interested in SEX?

Well i know that there is someone i love, and its not sex its emotion. I really wish i could have love from them.

Also I hate how alot of people in my daily life consider love to only be sex! Love is emotion not SEX. OK!!!

:) my thoughts for today

Death?

Why are we so concerned with death as a society? Why do we always want to look like death, listen to death?
Those are questions i ask myself about our society lets start thinking about LIFE AND HOPE :)

Jealousy..Personality

Dear blog,

Sometimes it seems like life itself is all a game or a story. Sometimes the things or better said the people you want are always taken before your eyes. I hate this feeling. Jealousy for me is something that is worse than hate or pain. I hate it. Of course that happen to me today and recently all this year. Someone keeps on getting what or who I want. And it really hurts, but i guess I will have to just deal. Something i find hard :/.

Sometimes it feels as if your personality is never one personality. Its like you have mixed feelings and attitudes. Is that crazy?

Also whats up with all this end of the world stuff? Why is everyone so concerned. It is so depressing :/

Bye :)

Recently

Hello recently I have been ok. I have been through some things though. Since the accident I have learned that I have to live life and not hold back. I havent been able to blog about things because I have been so busy. Overall things are going great and I am learning who my real friends are. I am thinking about quitting my job soon. I dont think my job is allowing me to do the things in my life that I want to do. Also as of now Im still not in a realtionship. I was almost in one but I got tired of her drama and all that came with it. She wasnt the type of person that I would want to be in a relationship for this. Also she lives in Florida so I would only get to see her quarterly. Overall I would say that Im happy about this, but I dont know cause she was the perfect person in a sense :(. I guess love is something that isnt meant for me. Also of course I have found some new styles I want to try. I would love to try to dress a little edgy. Maybe black pants or converses and a skull necklace I think this could be interesting. Also I have recently been in some drama. I think that I may not be all that I want to be.

School n the New Year

Well i have school tommorow :). Im looking forward to it though to see someone i really like but you know how that goes. Also for the new year im trialing Pescetarianism it seems like a healthy way to eat i did last summer for about to months but the school year kinda ruined it, but i think im ready to try again. Also im trying to lose a little weight because of some things I want to do this summer :D well thts all for now...